Well i've done it again. My arms are fucked up again and my hopes are dashed. should have known that I was getting my hopes up......Matt I love you so much but I refuse to give up and until you are once again in my arms once again i will continue to ask and you for that second chance. You say you are afraid that he will do this again. well he most likely will and you and I are just going to keep geating hurt. I know that it just sounds like i am jelous but to be honest he is never going to accept you for who you are. He told me he never wants to be a bottem and that he wants you to be his girl that day he came over and I am honestly tired of people treating you like a girl and not just accepting you. I have been keeping all this inside for a long time but i just can't just say i love you anymore and then just sit idealy by and let you get hurt. Please don't misunderstand me I do love you and if you would accept me i would have you but please search your instincts do you honestly think CD will ever truly want you and see you as the way you and I see you? I love you but please think about this and also please consider me as part of your life again.